Rush Ranch – Eastern Oregon
Wx: 79F, Overcast
My blog is filled with random thoughts this month.
1. My friend George died today. He had been experiencing several health issues this past year. He was a neighbor and the former Treasurer of our church. I took over the position when he decided that it was time to pass the work on to another. I had been his Assistant Treasurer for about four years before I assumed the Treasurer position in April of this year.
Death of a loved one is greeted with both sorrow and joy – joy that they no longer suffer, that they have walked into the arms of a loving God. Knowing that we shall see them again as they once were, healthy and strong. Of course there is the inevitable sorrow at the loss of their companionship. But we can use that sorrow to inspire us, to examine our own lives, to declutter ourselves from things that don’t really matter. To grasp with gusto and hold dear to all that is relevant and important and LOVED. Each passing of a friend or loved one should inspire us to make our own last years – whether that be 5 or 50 – to count. To matter. To make a difference. To establish and nurture a perpetual wave of goodness and kindness, to flourish and thrive. May it be so. May I honor George with being better at what and who I am supposed to be in this world.
2. I have often thought that there are no downsides of teaching little kids in Sunday School. But actually, there are two. One is that I miss them very much, when someone moves away. I get attached very easily to them – they feel like my own grandchildren. I don’t have the ability to NOT love them. The other downside is demonstrated by a conversation I had with one of the kids this Sunday. I asked her if she had a good week at school, and she informed me that she didn’t go to school all week because she had strep throat! Gads. I hope the other kids don’t come down with it! At other times my heart is heavy for one or more of them because of their tough family situations – but, I don’t consider that a downside – I think that I was placed there in that classroom to help them emotionally “weather their storm”. To “be there” for them, and let them know that they are not alone in their trials, that I care, that I love them unconditionally, and so does the Lord. We always do a craft in the last half of our class to support our lessons, and art can be very healing, too.
3. I think that I use too many commas in my writing………Not sure why I use them at all, but I suppose it is a remnant left over from a very strict English Teacher back in the day. I was not a good English student, because I never saw the value in diagramming a sentence – I mean, who does that in real life!? I just wanted to write what my head and heart was saying, and forget the punctuation. A stream of consciousness doesn’t care about such things. I am a flawed human.
4. Another flaw: I have a hard time making decisions. There. I put it out there in black and white. I didn’t have that issue on the job when a critical decision needed to be made, in fact, I could make a decision within a second of reviewing the best options. But ask me where I wanted to go for dinner, or where to sit in a movie theatre……..it wasn’t important enough to let my personal opinion override anyone else’s. My decision-making skills have grown lax since I have retired. I could use the excuse that I am just easy-going and affable – but I wonder if, depending upon the subject, I am just a little afraid of the outcome.
One of the issues that I am having regarding decision making, is regarding the promotion at Pixel Scrapper to a level 3 designer. The regulations for that level say that any designs I post to the Commons on Pixel Scrapper become the property of Pixel Scrapper, and I can’t share them anywhere else. (This doesn’t apply to the blog hops unless I post the blog hop kit in the Commons.) So, my dilemma is …… do I want to become exclusive to the Commons on all designs besides the blog hops, or do I focus on sharing the majority my designs on my blog? Am I being prideful and boastful by seeking designer advancement, or is that effort truly helping me to advance my personal goals?
My goal is always, ALWAYS to express kindness when I can. I hope that I am making a difference in this world by providing free downloads to be used for any purpose, including commercial use. My designs are humble and not at the peak of perfection, but it is what I currently have to offer. So, what would you do, if you were me? Would you post exclusively to the Commons and continue your advancement level as a designer at PS, or would you choose to post the majority of your work on your blog?
5. Over at the Pixel Scrapper site, the Blog Hop theme for October is “Pumpkin Spice”. I love that title for fall! The palette was a bit of a challenge as there were none of the normal golden brown, rust, burgundy and yellow colors normally associated with fall. And I think that was the whole idea, to challenge designers with different palettes and see what develops! You can find the rest of the Blog Hop designer links here, at the Forum.
Wishing you a very special October –
“Be kind to one another, tenderhearted, forgiving one another, as God in Christ forgave you.”
………….. Ephesians 4:32